Chasing Pavements..anyone?

Chasing Pavements – Adele

I’ve made up my mind, don’t need to think it over

If I’m wrong I am right, don’t need to look no further

This ain’t lust, I know this is love 

But if I tell the world, I’ll never say enough

‘Cause it was not said to you

And that’s exactly what I need to do if I’d end up with you

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements

Even if it leads nowhere?

Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place

Should I leave it there?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements

Even if it leads nowhere?

I build myself up and fly around in circles

Wait then as my heart drops and my back begins to tingle

Finally could this be it?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements

Even if it leads nowhere?

Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place

Should I leave it there?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements

Even if it leads nowhere?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements

Even if it leads nowhere?

Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place

Should I leave it there?

Should I give up or should I just keep on chasing pavements

Should I just keep on chasing pavements?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements

Even if it leads nowhere?

Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place

Should I leave it there?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements

Even if it leads nowhere?

This song of Adele lingers on my mind as I think through about the things going on with my life.  What I love about this song is the use of pavements as a symbol. But what does it really symbolize? We might not exactly know but one thing is for sure for me, it speaks of being at crossroads whether you should continue to be or let go. Which is perfectly why I can relate. I know I am at crossroads once again.

Never had I been so melodramatic as ever. AND, I’m literally getting tired of it. I just had this ‘epiphany’ that I need to take this out of my system. AND… when I say out, I mean literally OUT OF ME.  Bottom line: I’m prepping up for a major confession this coming week, and I’m doing this not because I’m having hopes of having any kind of romantic involvement with someone. I just want to get it all out, so I’ll have this clean slate when I leave.

Honest to goodness, I don’t know why it seems like doing this seems to be THE inevitable.. but then this could spell a difference in our friendship. However, I think this is the best thing to do, so that he’ll know. Besides, I know what I want, and I know what my priorities are. Now is not the right time. We still have things to finish, to learn, to grow, to stay away with… I know I definitely do.

I think this carries a lot of weight for me, because this is a lot different from the previous experiences I had, for now I know what my responsibilities are, and one of those is my actions regarding the feelings I have.

Maybe I’m letting these thoughts flow just to organize my mind on what is about to happen… and to prepare myself on whatever (either negative or positive) that could happen. Either way, I know that I am leaving to find my SELF, my individuality, who I am as just me. Sometimes its just fun to imagine being away from who people know you as, and start on a fresh page with yourself, with so many blank pages waiting to be written.

So the question remains, should I give up (meaning I will not breathe a word and just go on to life as we know it) or keep chasing pavements? Pavements… pavements? pavements.

Maybe I should stop for a while, and then walk on pavements with a purpose in mind.

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About The Scribbler

I have this thirst for learning. I am forever curious. I love to delve into stories by reading, watching or even listening. I believe I am unique. God is with Me all the time. I make mistakes but I learn from them. I love building lasting relationships. I am afraid of the unknown, so it's either I stay away or find out. I believe I am more matured that I was before.
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