In My Head, There are Zombies.

Day 1: April 12 203 09:15 pm
Inaatake na naman ako ng homesickness. Homesickness ng a ba to? Siguro more of loneliness. Namimiss ko Lang magkaron ng personal date. Go to a mall. Walk, sight seeing, eat, sit under a tree.. it’s like being nostalgic as mga bagay na wala naman ako pero matagal ko ng inaasam. Must admit na nakakaramdam ako ng ganito became I rarely go out. I have been cooped up too long in this house. Which. I must also admit that is not a good Thing. Hay.

Masama bang magdaydream? Yung nkaupo ka Lang as isang gilid without a single care in the world… na hayaaan no Lang umalpas yung imagination mo sa kahit among bagay. Ang importante ma-express mo yung sarili mo.
Hay. Pangalawang buntong-hininga. In a way when I do it, it’s as if I’m cleansing what’s within. Ramdam no na may feelings na kelangang lumabas… may mga words na kailangang mamutawi kahit na sa isip ko Lang sya sinasabi…
Two years of this existence, Makaya ko kaya? Na parang lutang, na parang uncertain as lahat. Na dapat on guard sa lahat, na rational ang pag-iisip, at responsible at logical…
Living under what I perceive as the expectations of others…
I don’t know and do ko rin alam kung ready ako sa sagot.

Marami akong internal struggles, because I guess it’s been too long that I am in my head. Must find a way to get out.

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I have this thirst for learning. I am forever curious. I love to delve into stories by reading, watching or even listening. I believe I am unique. God is with Me all the time. I make mistakes but I learn from them. I love building lasting relationships. I am afraid of the unknown, so it's either I stay away or find out. I believe I am more matured that I was before.
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