Dear Somber Self,
I can see that you have been sufferring from severe mood swings lately. This can only mean one thing. You have an accumulation of questions,musings, wishes, and wild dreams running inside your head.
You ask, what is it to me if you have these this in you? Simply because at one point, we are one, and whatver you do, and think and feel affects me too.
I just want you to know that you are not alone, you are loved, and there will come a time that the ‘special love’ you are looking for will come your way.The best things come to those who wait-not just wait, but patiently waiting.
If at this point, you think you are ready to enter into that realm, I would beg to differ. Admit it, you just want to know how the feeling of being in a relationship feels, AND you read, and watch too many romance-induced materials. The result? You can’t help but ask the soul of the universe the question “When will I have that?”
OK, granted that you now have the guts to enter a relationship, but have you even remotely asking what brought upon these seasoned questions? Of course you do. Another newsflash for and from you, you are still pining away for this person whom you SHOULD be part of your past, or just at least, with an air of civility in the present.
One good piece of advice:
(Got continued) KEEP YOUR FEELINGS IN CHECK. Don’t Turn every single thing into something more. Accept that that’s the way it is. That’s all there is. Stop it. I’m so sick and tired of falling into this vicious cycle. You have got to wake up. WAKE UP. WAKE UP. Okay, I’m getting melodramatic and not-so-sober like I thought I am. But please, get your stuff together.