Drunken Stupor

As I’m writing this, I know I’m tipsy.

I just downed a big mug of white wine, and pretended that it’s something a tiny bee wit wee bit(see, I am drunk) strong.

I just felt like escaping. Escaping consequences, responsibilities, being on the right side. I KNOW IT IS WRONG, and I’m trying my damnest to be in the straight path but what the actual fuck, it is so hard.

So what else was I supposed to do, old pal? Turn to you, once again. Quickly, If I may add, before the effect of the wine wears off of me.

So, what brings me here, you say? Well aside from escaping my reality. I just really want to be myself, even in just your pages, my cherie.

I honestly don’t know why I get so pissed off with my work. I know I have something and I CAN actually do something to change my state of living but the repercussions of this selfishness is an enormous thing that I shudder and step away even just breaching the possibility of finding another reality I CAN dwell on.

What if I begin looking for another job? The one I can be genuinely be happy about? The job where I can write to my heart’s content.

The one where even if I cannot earn so much, at least I’m so proud to say that it’s from my own efforts, LOVINGLY made, and will be so proud when it comes out.

I did my fair share in the business. Would it suffice that I leave it be? Do you think I can find a job that I can really excel? What am I good at actually? I know I’m a spontaneous, yet slightly organized, extremely moody, and responsible when needed type of person, and has always been passionate about reading and writing.

As of the moment, I just opened  a new window that brings me to a job search —I got sidetracked with the site.

There lies the question. Should I include all my acquired qualifications as a Business person? Should I also include my HSE AND Training qualifications?

when all I want is to write in peace, have a regular 8 – 5 job; and be free of the responsibilities (silent man silang ituring and symbolically  put in my shoulders). Is that even possible or just a pipe dream?

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I got frustrated because it keeps on losing the info I typed.It’s as if it’s telling me no, it’s   just not for you.

Magtry kaya ako ng writing jobs? Walang masamang magtry. Ang problema naman kasi sa akin ay dandanan-dan dan…*TIME MANAGEMENT* with all the shimmers and glitters that seemingly glossy and powerful concept beholds.

 

 

 

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About The Scribbler

I have this thirst for learning. I am forever curious. I love to delve into stories by reading, watching or even listening. I believe I am unique. God is with Me all the time. I make mistakes but I learn from them. I love building lasting relationships. I am afraid of the unknown, so it's either I stay away or find out. I believe I am more matured that I was before.
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