I’m finally free

Kelangan ko lang talaga ilabas to eh. 

So I saw A again this afternoon. He was this silent guy na only talks to when spoken, and yet with a firm handshake. 

We never had a decent conversation, he never dared to initiate talks, he answered cryptic questions by Ate Che.

Guess what? 

I feel okay. I’m not as messed up as I was, and my reactions to his actions surpassed the expectations of Ate Che. Oh di ba record breaking? 

I think that’s the perfect description: I’m not as messed up as I used to be pagdating sa kanya. 

In a question by Ate Che, he was asked: “Bakit wala ka pang lovelife?” 

He answered: “Malapit na po,” to which Ate Che thought with some ‘air’ included.

Still according to Ate Che, he did so while glancing at me, as if gauging my reactions.

Fortunately(?) or deliberately if I may say, I am quite oblivious to what they are talking about but I must have been listening off-handedly. 

But again, checking myself, I am not as messed up as I was, I’m not hung up as before, and though I cannot fully admit that I am not affected (because apparently, it still warrants a blog entry), I would like to claim that I am over the idea of me and him. 

Siguro quiet acceptance. Ang tagal ng panahon para alagaan, kelangan ko naman i free up ang space sa utak puso at buhay para maging ready na ako. 

And I finally moved to that stage, accepting that some things are not really you think it seem, because it’s only God who knows what’s best for you. 

Kahit na buong angkan na ang nagtatanong kung kelan ka magboboyfriend. 😂😂😂😂 

Buhay nga naman. Well, this made me of lighter heart, kahit may sakit ako, physically. Ta ta!!


About The Scribbler

I have this thirst for learning. I am forever curious. I love to delve into stories by reading, watching or even listening. I believe I am unique. God is with Me all the time. I make mistakes but I learn from them. I love building lasting relationships. I am afraid of the unknown, so it's either I stay away or find out. I believe I am more matured that I was before.
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