Adieu, Old Self

I say goodbye to so many things beginning today.

I say goodbye to hurt, questions, anxiousness, improper thoughts and all the negative things in my life. I have had enough of them.

Yesterday was a perfect example. I was super conscious with my weight. While I acknowledge that there is still more to improve in my physical body, I guess it’s high time to acknowledge that it all starts with the mind. THE MINDSET. It starts within, It starts with me.

While I am very thankful for all the things I have learned of the yesterdays, I realize that what is important is the art of fulfilling today and tomorrow.

I have enough of the rants, questions, negative thoughts that I have dumped here all through out the years. I want to change for the better. I want to make this more meaningful, my life meaningful, all in the GLORY OF GOD. I think it’s high time to focus.

I used to think that when the time comes that I be engaged in a relationship, I will be fully matured, better-knowing, ready to face challenges without batting an eyelash. I would be this successful career woman already raking in money, doing a job I want.

If I look at my plan in life, I would say that I am far from that successful woman I have in my mind. But fear not, when I look at God’s plan, I am now on track with His plans for me.

Career-wise, I am not the media person I envision myself to be, but I am this Operations Manager, who should learn to take things systematically in order to run the business profitably. If you’d read my former blogs, I was once this lost girl forever asking what is was God’s plan for me, because I do not want to be in this line of work. But now I realized, God has allowed me to undergo that kind of struggle, because He knows I will come out a better individual, and He has given me gifts that enable me to handle the challenges He gave and I will continue to meet in this line of work.

Physically,  I am far from my ideal weight. I still need to curb my cravings, and need to choose healthier options when it comes to food. But with a heightened awareness to a healthier and better lifestyle choices, I am undergoing a process of change- physically. Starting with the goal of losing 20 kilos.

Emotionally – God has blessed me so much in the area of love life and proved to me that time and again, because I prayed for Him to heal my heart and prepare me for His plans when it comes to my love life, I am now so proud to say, that He has answered my prayer. I now have a boyfriend. Someone who has been the object of my attention years before. It happened so unexpectedly, and without me actively wishing for it, but it seems that God has plans for me this year. We are now going on our third week of relationship. It is no easy feat; but by the grace of God, we are establishing our relationship to the the best of our ability. I thank the Lord for this man. He proved that when you trust God and wait on Him, He will give you the desires of the heart. (Of course in accordance to His will! :))

Spiritually – I have been renewed and reawakened with the thirst of knowing Jesus more in my life. I must admit I have been busy with other things, but now. I’m making a promise to God and myself that I will strive with all my might to make my relationship with God my utmost priority, above all else. I have impure thoughts, I have done so many sins. But never have I felt that God left me. In fact, He is my saving grace, who always, always always saves me from my sins, who never gets tired to make me feel that I am His child. Thank you Lord for Your never ceasing love. I have been on that deep dark end where I do everything because it was necessary, but because You have never ever given up on me, here I am again Lord, make me Your servant. Cleanse me truly, let me be free from bondage.

So I say adieu to the old grumpy, whiny, anxious, worrisome, overthinking Eunice. I will now say hello to a new Eunice. The girl who entrusts everything to GOD. Who may not know everything but knows that IF GOD IS WITH ME, WHO CAN BE AGAINST ME?

THIS IS MY FIRST POST THIS 2017! Hooray for a full year of positivity! ❤

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About The Scribbler

I have this thirst for learning. I am forever curious. I love to delve into stories by reading, watching or even listening. I believe I am unique. God is with Me all the time. I make mistakes but I learn from them. I love building lasting relationships. I am afraid of the unknown, so it's either I stay away or find out. I believe I am more matured that I was before.
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