Hey-Yow What’s Up? A quick Update

I’m currently munching on some biscuits as I type this and I cannot help but find it that much has happened since my last outburst here.

Well, to start, Mr. Positivity turned out to also being Mr. Business-minded himself. Mr. Usana to be more specific. Hehe. Akalain mo yung networking na joke ng mga kapatid ko, totoo pala. <insert iyak-tawa emoji here>  They  even have the guts to us the term OPEN-MINDED. I was laughing inside as soon as I heard it, kasi naman, si Life naman kung makapag-biro, straight out from a cliche’d joke book.

Ano ba pinagsasabi ko? well I won’t go to the specifics so much, pero eto na here it goes, specific man to o hindi, basta i’ll narrate what happened:

Owing to the fact that I cannot contain my feels from my last blog post, I decided to copy and paste some of the realizations I had and posted it on FB. Eto namang si Mr. Positvity, called me out of the blue, say last two Sundays ago, just I was preparing for my training in Manila. He immediately asks me about that post – pertaining to my excerpt from the blog.

“Ano yung post mo? Tungkol saan?” He quips. To tell you honestly, I was genuinely surprised and touched that there’s someone who’s literally interested with what I have to share on FB, kasi as I explained numerous blog posts ago, na I just don’t post anything on FB. What I post, are clues to my being, How I can be happy, How I entertain myself, what I feel – small clues about me. So ayun nga, I told me, “Binasa mo talaga? Curious ka talaga?” With him replying in ascent, sabi nya, “Oo naman, pinost mo eh, Tsaka yang mga post na ganyan, alam ko na yan.”

Kinilig naman ako amp. HAHAHA!!! Naivete here. Looking back, ang sarap batukan eh. HAHA. Alam ko naman ilusyon KO lang to, pero di ba, rationale ko sa sarili ko, hanggat alam ko sa sarili kong hindi ako umaasa sa kanaya, walang masama. Besides, I’m just exploring friendships. I know full well that whatever this is, IS NOT the one I’m looking for. Oo na, di na ako magdedefend. haha. Moving on,

“Alam mo, mag-join ka na lang sa Financial Literacy seminar na alam ko, mga multi-hyphenated yung magta-talk sa seminar.” Ako naman itong si Naivete, syempre go lang. Interested, syempre, for my side, I also want to learn how to be mature financially. I want to know GENUINELY kung paano makapag-invest, paano magsave up for the future. So there i went even if it’s a Sunday, even if I have to pay PHP 150 for it. Come to think of it, business na business talaga sila ano? Ako na nga yung ijo-join nila sa network marketing, as they call it, ako pa nagbayad. Hay naku, Ikaw kasi, Nadadala ka ng mabulaklak na salita.

Ayun I endured long talks and testimonies of members of the said networking group. With all due respect, they are really multi-hyphenated, they are really people with so much experience and so many accomplishments, and they found this new venture, I admire them for it, but I have mixed feelings about it. Tsaka pangalawa, talaga naman eh. Kahit di ka nagmumura, mapapamura ka sa mahal ng produkto nila eh. 5 figures!!!! PHP XX,000

Di naman ako ganung kayaman para isugal yung ganung kalaking pera. And even if I have, I’d like to see it for myself kung may epekto talaga. So after the talk, I even managed to take photos with him and his fellow invitees, but I was non-committal about it though I managed to make inquiries.

So fast forward to a week after, translating to Thursday evening. Ang funny nung text nya:

“Happy September 1. Cess, matanong ko lang, ilan ang weight mo? and target ideal weight?”

Bwahahaha. Sinong hindi iikot sa kinauupuan nya dito? or sa kama kung saan ako nakaupo nung mga panahong iyon? Katatapos ko lang magdinner, tapos yun ang mababasa mo? I dunno but if I felt a bit offended, I rationalized that he really wanted because he wanted to help me lose it. Pero shet pa din diba? Well, I said to myself, pinaghirapan kong kainin lahat ng to, so might as well, come clean. I said. Nope, never going to repeat it here. hahaha.

He just said, “22 kgs huh? Madali lang yan.” Di ko talaga alam prends, kung tatawa ako o maiinsulto. kasi I’m not used to those kinds of conversations. Add to the fact that I know that he’s into health and wellness bsiness. Okay lang sana kung Health and Wellness Advocacy eh, maiinspire pa ako, pero chong, nasa Health and Wellness Business ka, networking pa. What does that make me? Do I have to draw the target symbol in my  forehead for you to connect two-and-two? (Bakit walang emoji sa WP??) hahaha.

Add injury to insult, a text convo with him, yet again. Sabi nya, isesend nya sa akin yung meal plan. Syempre from what I heard sa mga convo and orientation nung ‘FINANCIAL SEMINAR’ I have a gist of how much so medyo worried ako. Only to be confirmed and to finally come clean.

He gave me the meal plan, gave me a list of low glycemic foods, the list of supplements I need to take, how much would I lose in a day, in a week, in a month, should I take products. So sabi ko, ok naman lahhat, pero the next question is, magkano?

Gusto ko malaglag sa upuan ko, kasi nga whopping 5 digits yung price. All for the promise of me losing weight. and being healthy. Ok naman sana pumayat, pero naman, nakakalula naman sa mahal. Siguro naman if I control my stomach and my mouth and make well-informed choices about the way I eat, di ako aabot ng ganyang kamahal. So I finally said,

“Okay naman lahat, kaso to tell you honestly, I don’t have that kind of money with me. I don’t have credit card, because I don’t have enough credit history. I’m only back for a year right?”

So HIS Reply came monosyllabic in nature.

Because of this, I was medyo embarrassed, so I said, “I have budgeted my money na kasi on other investments chorva ekla, (thinking of my bahay for rent, na medyo tengga muna for now) to save face.

And then came, “Let’s meet tomorrow. I’m on my way to Makati kasi for a seminar this afternoon, kaya we can’t meet like we used to. I can explain it how you can make this an investement, di lang nman to health and wellness, pang wealth gain din.”


To which I replied, “OH, INGAT KA.”


So ano na mga bes, patay na bata na ba? haha. Goodbye Mr. Positvity na nga ba and Hello Mr. Networking na? Makikipagmeet ba ako sa kanya bukas? Abangan ang mga susunod na pangyayari kasi di ko din alam eh. Hahaha. Just felt like sharing. Iba naman ikekwento ko pag sinipag.


Pero realizations: Gusto ko na din iprioritize yung health ko. Pero di  ko  kaya yung way nya. Gusto ko na din ayusin finances ko, so dapat I must decide paano ko gagawin to. So if there’s one thing I’m thankful for, yun yung heightened awareness ko about Health and Wealth.

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I’m finally free

Kelangan ko lang talaga ilabas to eh. 

So I saw A again this afternoon. He was this silent guy na only talks to when spoken, and yet with a firm handshake. 

We never had a decent conversation, he never dared to initiate talks, he answered cryptic questions by Ate Che.

Guess what? 

I feel okay. I’m not as messed up as I was, and my reactions to his actions surpassed the expectations of Ate Che. Oh di ba record breaking? 

I think that’s the perfect description: I’m not as messed up as I used to be pagdating sa kanya. 

In a question by Ate Che, he was asked: “Bakit wala ka pang lovelife?” 

He answered: “Malapit na po,” to which Ate Che thought with some ‘air’ included.

Still according to Ate Che, he did so while glancing at me, as if gauging my reactions.

Fortunately(?) or deliberately if I may say, I am quite oblivious to what they are talking about but I must have been listening off-handedly. 

But again, checking myself, I am not as messed up as I was, I’m not hung up as before, and though I cannot fully admit that I am not affected (because apparently, it still warrants a blog entry), I would like to claim that I am over the idea of me and him. 

Siguro quiet acceptance. Ang tagal ng panahon para alagaan, kelangan ko naman i free up ang space sa utak puso at buhay para maging ready na ako. 

And I finally moved to that stage, accepting that some things are not really you think it seem, because it’s only God who knows what’s best for you. 

Kahit na buong angkan na ang nagtatanong kung kelan ka magboboyfriend. 😂😂😂😂 

Buhay nga naman. Well, this made me of lighter heart, kahit may sakit ako, physically. Ta ta!!

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Eunoia – From Ancient Greek εὔνοια �(eúnoia, “goodwill”, literally “well-mindedness”), from εὖ �(eû, “well, good”) + νόος �(nóos, “mind, spirit”).
A week,
A day,
An hour. 
A moment, 
Just a minute…
To reflect on what’s been going on 

is easier said than done. 
Feet are itching,

Mind’s wandering. 

Waiting, yet again
For the next eureka. 
For the next euphoria
For that simple eunoia. 
All that’s left to do is to take a deep breath…
Face and overcome the paranoia.
Random drabble. 

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Augustus Waters

Yep. I’m gonna call it. What a lame title, but hey, you simply just have to bear with it. Haha. To rationalize, it’s now the 5th of August 2016. Therefore, Augustus. Waters kasi….malakas ang ulan kanina. Wahaha.

I woke up once again in the middle of the night. So instead of trying to be in social media, I thought it would be better if I start writing again. 

What’s up, you ask? Other than I managed to survive another hill of challenges at work and I am on my way to new ones this August. Kaya naman, it just takes sweat, (a lot of ’em) sleepless nights, a lot of energy spent worrying and stressing (which I shouldn’t do, I know) and a lot of support from the family even of I end up giving them grief due to me stressing. 


There are times (…when I just want to look in your eyes… Chos) ok eto, seryoso na. There are times that I think I already got the hang of this job, bit time and again there are lots of instances that proves me wrong. Ang laki pa sobra ng dapat long iimprove in all aspects, especially in decision making and maturity. 

Yep, parang I’m slowly…ever so slowly making my way to #Adulting101. Not that I don’t want to but of course, just like any first time, there is a sense of dread. Oh ayan nag ooverthink ka na naman. Tsk

So there goes career. Uhm, ayun sa  learning naman, I just wanted to share yung a tidbit of solid gold advice I have for the week. It came from Ma’am Shirley. She said,

Alam mo, marami namang knowledge na makukuha sa mundo. Kailangan mo lang kunin yung knowledge na maiaapply mo sa sarili mo. 

Well, words to that effect. Tama naman diba? Dami mo ngang alam pero di mo naman mai apply sa buhay. Para saan ang knowledge? To which I think I am guilty of. 

I must choose which knowledge should I choose in order to make my life better and worth more living. 

Ang amazing lang kasi sabi nga everyday, you get that chance to talk to someone and hear them how they deal with life. Di pala alo nag-iisa. 

Then there’s this old school mate, named Erick. Oh I know what you’re thinking. Kinikilig ka coz he’s a cutie. He just messaged me all of a sudden, dahil ni like ko ang post nya, he said thanks. I found that truly adorable. 

Tapos biglang all of a sudden, seryoso na ang usapan. About life, love, career and how one adjusts to it. He seems so serious, and yet so passionate. Positive, too. Kasi he advices me to be positive. Kesa kung anong mga pabebe. Haha. Medyo naguilty nga ako sa pabebe na part, hello, issues ko yan. But still, I listened and agreed to his points. Though of course, medyo cautious pa din. Di naman lahat ng sasabihin is iaaccept mo nlang, diba? 

Until he offered to talk with me over coffee bukas, (Saturday, kasi Friday na ng madaling araw) at 10 am. Gusto kong kutusan yung sarili ko, kasi di ko alam kung kikiligin ako, or magiging cautious ako kasi baka iinvite nya ako sa networking nya. Edi ba dun nagsisimula yun, sa pa kape-kape? 😂😂😂😂 

Wag ka excited, Nis. Wala pa. Ako naman I’m always willing to listen to people who I know can inspire me and help me through their experiences. Kaya dapat, yun ang mangibabaw. That is, kung matutuloy. Kasi naman may posts yata ako na pabebe. Eh parang di nya trip. What the hell, I don’t post on social media for anyone. I post for me, and di naman sya pabebe masyado. I just said, my mom wants me to have a boypren olredi, para daw di na ako masungit. Haha.

Saklap diba? Hahaha 😂😂😂😂

Tapos here goes peeps reacting on my post; and I’m sure tons of people who just saw my post and inwardly reacted not bothering to let me know. 

Ewan lang. Di naman sa desperate moves or anything. I just wanted to immortalize the moment. Kasi nga nagmoment kami ng nanay ko. Haha. 

Siguro overthinking to. (Oo, overthinking yan, sabi ni conscience) Bahala na. It’s just the first week of August, madami pa mangyayari. 

But I hope in all of them, I get to learn to appreciate life and use it well. Para di naman sayang yung binigay ni Lord. 

Augustus Waters: this August, let the light and waterworks pour in. 😉

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I seriously need a reset button in my life.  Or if not a reset,  a pause button,  perhaps? 

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The pursuit of Happiness


Yesterday, while I celebrated his passing of the Licensure exam for teachers,  I can’t help but look at my life. I have constantly seen how he is faithful in prayer, never ceasing and never wavering. I also wanted that same faith. To never doubt His plans for me.

So I went and did my neglected devotion and poured out my heart once more. I even read this book entitped, ‘Thank God it’s Monday’.
I came across this passage, saying, “Society would like for us to believe that more money brings happiness, contentment and peace, so we chase after itas though life itself depended on it. But as Christians,we know that our life depends upon God and it’s in Him that we are given these internal blessings.”

Which leads to my question, what makes you happy? I asked myself the same.

WHAT MAKES ME HAPPY? or rather  more appropriately, when say I want to be happy, where does this happiness comes from? More questions to think about.

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Lion City

So this is SG in a glimpse. I hope to be more verbose about it until I sort out my feelings.

A definite one for the books experience.

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Seeing the gem in the rubble


After so many hours, managed to set my office into an acceptable looking corner.
It feels good, having to go through all the mess and seeing it as orderly as possible. It makes me feel like I have control of some form in my life, which I know I have, at some point.
Hopefully, I get to have the same feels and outlook once I touch the accounts and the reporting aspect of my job, but that would be after my educational trip to Singapore. So there goes an adventure!

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Reflection refraction


For all the good it woud do to me, I’d say my work station is as messy as my mind right now.
The only thing I need to be doing is to shovel out all the clutter and start anew.

So much has happened in the weeks I’ve been gone. It was so striking that the capability to write and wash it down with words were stripped from me. But now,I must say I must start purging. Of clutter, of mess, of anxieties, of worries, of mistrust and for all the hell of negative emotions I thrust myself into.

If I want change it has to start from within. From me.

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I am restless tonight.. It seems I want to do something but I can’t seem to find what it is. I tried reading, Just finished watching 2 movies straight. Ate a slice of a sinfully delicious cake, tempted to eat once again, but thought better of it. So what’s the next step? Well, just to pour out the many random thoughts in my mind, as I tried to listen to a 90’s remix radio on Spotify.

What am I thinking you say, i’m thinking how I can be able to become productive in my line of work. Just this morning, I got ambushed for almost one hour talking about a condensed version of BOSH to my dad so he can better explain it to his colleagues back in Dubai, and I teasingly told him to send me back to Dubai so I can assist him in the training. It’s a point of pride within me that I can at least say that I know what I’m talking about in BOSH, or at least, I get the gist and essence of it in the numerous repetitive versions I’ve heard of it. That’s why I was able to explain it to him. I hope he appreciated and recognized that skill. In fact I even enjoyed explaining it to him. Which therefore led me to believe that I enjoy training and teaching and talking, and I’m not organized as I liked to be. I have gazillion of things to do in our office, but I never could seem to catch up. I know I need to do them, but the day zips up fast because I did not prioritize the things I need to do and instead watched tv, for three freaking hours, check my phone for updates for every 10 -15 minutes, and day-dreaming before the actual work. My work ethic is crap. And I can only sigh in regret, just like now. I REALLY WANT TO. But then, I got no one else to blame but myself. Wake up, Eunice, you seriously need to.

Another thing swirling in this mind is the possibility of doing writing jobs, perhaps? Just not to get this words and ideas stuck in the mind d’you think I can handle that? Moonlighting as a romance novel writer, perhaps? Do you think I can still squeeze it in my jumbled mess? But I’m holding o to the belief that if  you really want it, then you’ll exhaust all means just to see it through. I’m looking at this in a positive lens, when I should be doing homework for all my grad school subjects. Oh! HOW FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!

I have tons to do but I don’t have the will to do it, I want to do something that will give me immense pleasure, but I don;t have the guts to do it. Therefore what does that make me? A bum inside a comfortable box. Who doesn’t want to move, who doesn’t want to tip the scales. Ugh. I’ve been this couch potato that is completely comfortable with the sofa, even though everything else is a pigsty. I have a plethora of excuses, but I lack the actual ACTION!!!!!!!! I need to change.

it’s all about the attitude, the discipline and the willpower. Tomorrow I’m going to go jogging, time myself for an hour, and then go back and be dressed like a normal adult. Eat breakfast and actually get some work done. I’m going to stay away from the TV no more, get away from my phone and face my responsibilities.

May the good Lord guide me in this. I really need to change. I need this change!

So change starts tonight I’m going to sleep early.  No later than 10 pm.



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